Walls Closing In

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This post was originally featured on World Moms Blog in October of 2011. *** I looked around at their smiling faces as I nervously fiddled with my unkempt hair. When was the last time I took a shower? I wasn’t sure. I couldn’t remember the last time I ate, either. I wasn’t hungry. “Oh, Carri!” My grandma was holding him, his tiny hand wrapped around her finger. “He’s … [Read more...]

My “Good Will Hunting” Moment

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I don't remember where we were headed when he asked me that question. It was a question I'd heard so many times before. A question I loathed. A question that immediately put me in defense mode and caused me to throw up the walls I'd been trying so hard to break down. But it sounded different coming from him. "Carri, why don't you want kids?" He nervously looked at me from the passenger … [Read more...]

In Which I Ramble On About Anxiety

Yesterday, I gave you my list of pre-Blissdom worries, which includes snakes on a plane and peeing myself in front of Dolly Parton. But the truth is that I have other things rolling around in my mind, too. When you have anxiety disorder, any sort of bump in the road or upset in your routine is enough to throw you into a five day tailspin. It doesn't matter whether the bump is a good thing or … [Read more...]

It’s Okay. I’m With The Band.

I often wonder why blogging entered my life after I won the battle with postpartum depression. Not that blogging would have made the fight easier, but I could have really used the support and comfort while I was deep in my illness. A year after I started blogging (and two and a half years after Blake's birth), I decided it was time to open up about my battle with PPD, anxiety and depression, … [Read more...]